My weekend was hindi naman hellish, more of purgatory siya. I was recovering from my Gastroenteritis and it was so painful and hard. My body felt really “ngalay” and terribly week. I was lying down all the time. I was concentrating not to vomit because it will trigger more the acidity in my tummy. I was trying my best to get better because I know that severe acidity in my tummy will result to palpitations and then trigger my anxiety disorder.
And I don’t like that.
That’s the only good thing being able to experience already the Anxiety Disorder. I know my triggers and pagpalapit na siya, I try my best to overcome it. The prevention is so hard but overcoming the Anxiety Disorder is worse.
I’ve been eating small meals. I haven’t been drinking coffee, cola or iced tea. Puros tubig lang ako. I sleep with my head elevated so I won’t get acid reflux. And I drink my meds. I need to get better asap because ayaw ko lalambot lambot pagdating ng Tokyo. This is the first time we will be traveling out of the country with Wowa, Toots and us all together. First time since I was born. Ganern. I want to be fit and healthy so I can enjoy this vacation ng bonggang bongga.
I made sure everyone’s fine sa trip. Anika’s drinking antibiotics already because she’s having cough (with phlegm) and colds for more than a week now. I consulted that with her pedia. Kaysa magkalagnat na naman before the trip, she can drink na daw antibiotics. I’m recovering, though nanglalata pa ako. Alvin’s coughing so I asked him if he wants to drink antibiotics too. Wag daw ako praning, sabi niya. Lelz.
Today ko lang ginagawa our itinerary kasi baka maudlot na naman. I started packing last night. Madali lang naman because I planned my whole OOTD for the trip. I won’t be bringing a lot of extra clothes. I’m saving the space for the Tsubaki shampoo and conditioner packs. Hahaha!
Anyway, i-expound ko lang yung positive vibes that I was telling you in my previous posts. I received a lot of messages in my social media accounts when I posted my Emergency Room photo. There were well wishes and yung iba sabi baka may kumukulam na sa aking inggitera. But a lot of you were telling me to think more positively kasi di ba nga we attract what we think? I believe that. And then Benz of Weddings @ Work messaged me also about positive thinking and how this can help you become a lighter and a generally happier person. That is the reason why I put my foot down and said that I will never entertain the thought of the pre-travel curse ever again. Unang una, wala nang mas powerful pa kay God. I think I should have more faith in Him. Second, yun nga, positive thinking! This is the reason why I went back to meditating again. Kanina nagmeditate ako ulit after weeks for not doing it. Nakakagaan talaga ng pakiramdam. You can download the app that I’m using. It’s Meditation Studio and it looks like this:
There’s a free version but I got the 3 months package for Php 899. Sulit naman kasi super nice the meditations that are there. There’s for stress, anger, positive thinking, work, happiness, sleep, kids and a lot more. There are short meditations that run from 3 minutes to 5 minutes lang. There are longer meditations also if you have more time to do it.
At first, meditation can be challenging pero once you’ve tried it, you will feel a bit lighter. You will also feel na parang gumaganda yung mood mo most of the time. I promised myself that I will meditate more consistently. Kahit at least 10 minutes a day lang sana.
So there. I just wanted to share because I agree with all their suggestions about trying to be positive and all. I hope you all will have a great week ahead!